Sijet Lev

Back online

Mon, 26 Oct 2009 13:21:49 GMT

Ok, so I got a Blackberry Tour over the weekend to deal with all my work email...which reminds me that I need to go upstairs and pick it up from being set up. I also got a new video game for my birthday coming up this Thursday, and I played that for a long time the other day. Now I'm back at work. At the office, so I have normal internet access, so I've read up on all my friends activities as much as my now busier schedule allowed me before I made this post.

My new job is quite crazy and very fast paced once I get into it, but because I'm the new low guy on the totem poll, there are large chunks of time when I have nothing to do and that is quite boring, but not the end of the world I guess.

I am now using facebook if anyone wants to befriend me there (a follow up private for friends only post will have my real name in it so you all can find me if you wish :D), however that is without any trans or gay issues...my mom subscribes to it and doesnt now a thing about me in that respect, so please treat me as a straight guy there.

Which reminds me, that I've decide, for the most part I'm more gay then trans as I don't really think I want to be a woman, even though I admit if I had been born that way I might be happier with myself...right now the only problem I have with my body is that I am a tall man...and I wish I was a short man....which I can't change so worrying about it is ridiculous, but I can't help that fact that I wish I was a short cute gay guy :P.

Anyway...I cut my hair real short...like 1/2 to 3/4 inch long...removing all the black dye so now I am back to my natural dirty blonde color. I will most likely be getting glasses within a week or two depending on if the doctor agrees I am going near-sighted...which I am, but he has to agree so insurance covers them. I will also be getting my ears pierced this coming Friday (I figure if I type it out I am most likely to follow through).

Anyway, I should be getting back to the small amount of work (the tech guy actually just brough my blackberry back to me so that was really nice of him, now I dont have to walk up there). Love to all!

~Sij

My other puppies

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 12:21:01 GMT

So here's my other puppies. This first one is Dizzy Daisy:

This one is Mina Bean:

They are somewhat older pics but they still look like that. I uploaded a couple more of Dizzy into my gallery cuz i couldn't decide which one I liked the most :D

One of my Puppies

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 16:41:02 GMT

So here is a completely rediculous picture of one of my puppies, Ignis (named after Ignis the Furnace Master from World of Warcraft).

CPA Exam

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 12:18:35 GMT

So....I just received my final letter from the AICPA, I have passed all of the sections of the CPA Exam!!! In 1500-2000 hours of work experiance I will be a CPA!!! OMG, that so exciting! AND, apparently, I get BONUS CHECK!!!! For passing it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT????? A BONUS CHECK?????

I love my new job.....like......a whole lot........ya......

Also, our dogs have been having random spurts of diaria all over our new house......not sure why, they aren't eating food they haven't eaten before....We're hoping it's just stress from the move and maybe some jelous attention grabbing because of the new puppy....I'm not sure....

Which reminds me that I have never posted pictures of my animals! I'll have to do that soon....maybe today.....It's Jean Day at the office, but last night I had to attend a Meet The Recruiters night in Mount Pleast (2 hour drive from Troy where I live), so I got home at midnight.....BUT I did rack up some serious overtime for attending it so I can probably head off early today if I want :D and I do want...heheh.

My fiancee starts school soonish, I'm getting a new Blackberry Phone soonish, a new car soonish, then we work on saving up for new furniture :P. I'm pretty excited about it all.

OH, also! Our old roommate is over this weekend to attend the Reneissance Festival, so we are going tomorrow! YAY!!! We're gonna buy homemade syrup! :P Prolly not much else though seeing as my budget is already pretty squeezed for this month. We're prolly all gonna have a drunk party tonight too seeing as that is what we usually do :P

And as they say on WoW, Cya 'round.

~Sij

Imna Accountant Now!

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 18:56:26 GMT

HOMG...so im an accountant now...I'm an auditor at Doeren Mayhew, Certified Public Accountants. I'll be a CPA myself in like....a year once i have the experiance requirement. I bought a house, we have money now so I can buy food that isnt slowly killing me like top raman lol.

I'm very excited and very happy. Everything is going great and I just discovered I should be able to buy myself a car in a few months so my fiancee can go to school while I go to work! OMG eveything is just super for me right now!

Hope to be able to pay attention to you all again now that things have calmed down. See you all later!

~Sij

Moved

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 23:44:31 GMT

So i finally bought the house and have moved in!! My life is a little crazy right now with getting the house situated and getting ready to go to work on Tuesday. Im so excited!!! And i had fiber optic internet installed the other day so I finally have internet and it is amazingly fast!!! its so awesome...but more to come...i gotta go. Im sorry to my friends that i havent been commenting on...soon i ll settle down and be able to give u all the time u deserve :3

It's Late but I'm done!

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 05:28:35 GMT

I finally finished that dreadful CPA Exam!!!! OMG im so incredibly happy about it! AND the lending company is finally done needing me to jump through hoops so I will actually be buying a house at the end of this mont....whichi s like 1 week from today!!!!!1 *SQUEEEEEEE*

So i felt really good about the exam...in fact it was extremely easy in comparison to what I expected it to be actually...The practice test was all big long story/math problems...but the real test had only like 3 or 4 out of 90 questions like that :D It was just awesome!!!!!

Anyway...it's really late and I need to get to sleep so I'm going to go...good night!

Sorry

Wed, 12 Aug 2009 02:17:01 GMT

Hi all....I just wanted to say sorry to my friends for not commenting on posts and such...I'm cram studying for my last CPA Exam section and running out of time in the day way before I should :/ I am reading them though!! Hope to catch up with you all soon! <3

Going to Michigan Adventure

Fri, 07 Aug 2009 13:28:29 GMT

Ok...so we were going to go to Cedar Point with our new Guild friends Mataya and her hubby....but the sponsoring guild (which isn't our guild) can't get a hold of the guy that owns all the condo's we were going to stay in for free, so we decided just to hang out at Mataya's house and go to Michigan Adventure with her. It should be awesome fun :D so we're looking forward to it...but first we have to go to work and try to train our replacements some more because on their first day alone with out us they were being reeeeaallly dumb...which is very sad...

Anyway...gotta get to work...see ya around :P

~Sij

Been a while

Mon, 20 Jul 2009 20:01:54 GMT

So I haven't posted in forever, but I'm still here. I've just been really really really busy. But here's some updates if anyone wants to know :D

Me and my fiancee are buying a house :D I ran my car into a deer and the airbags went explody in my face...so the insurance company gave me almost five thousand dollars. I'm putting that money down on this wonderfully beautiful house that is just awesome, its got a finished basement with a bar even! Then when we finally buy it I get to file an amended tax return and the government gives me $8,000 for free!!!! OMG that is awesome. So a deer literally changed my life! lol

On the CPA Exam front: I have passed the first two sections I have taken. I just took the third sectoin and feel good about it. I have one section left and its the easiest one. Taking it on August 24th, so soon I will be done with all that crap! YAY...Also, I'm almost done with my stupid summer classes. I had to take a few more classes so I could have 150 college credits to get my CPA license. Online Psychology=bad :< by the way.

So overall my life is looking up, and I've finally come to terms with myself gender-wise too...I'm a man...nothing I can do about it...at least I'm an attractive, healthy, and strong man right? I'm happy with myself now, I know I could never be a girl anyway so that part of my life is washed away, but in a good way :D

I'll try to keep posting rather than just being busy/lazy about it :D See ya'll later!

Studying Again

Sun, 17 May 2009 04:28:15 GMT

So...I've started studying once again for the next section of the CPA exam...I'm studying in ernest...but luckily I've scheduled myself out so I can still hang out later in the day, play WoW, read my feefee's book hehe its soo good. I luv it so much...Other than that, nothing is going on...I'm starting my summer school on Monday...its going to be soo easy...LOL...office math..online psych and history of michigan. LOL that is just hilariously easy. And all my classes are on Tuesday only...it'll be so easy.

OH and I actually got ALL A's on all those classes I was worried about passing. I got one A- but I can live with that...I nailed all the finals, so I'm super excited abou that. My life (besided money being in short supply) is going great right now :3

...I started looking for a house to buy...been talking to Quicken Loan's about getting a mortgage...they want 3.5% down though..thats around $5,000...I don't have that kind of money...I doubt my relatives are going to be able to get it to me either...I would really love to buy a house...but I might end up renting...either way we'll be ok though.

And I've been very content about my gender feelings now that my feefee drew me the wonderful reference, I feel like the Sijet in me has been embodied in such a way that helps me seperate it from my actual self in such a way that I don't feel all conflicted inside :3 So all is great...but....I'd still switch my gender if I could magically be completely female (not just surgical transition) lol like in the book Sex Gates...its a cool trilogy about gates that do just that. It was a fun read...a long time ago. Anyway..signing off now byee!

~Sij

Wedding Happy Fun Time

Sun, 10 May 2009 01:50:24 GMT

So I just got back from my best friend's wedding. I was the best man (I was happy to be male today). It was very cool...but very unorganized because his family really doesn't like him the way they should and they kinda didn't care if it worked out for them. BUT the bride was beautiful, it didn't rain and they had it outside at this extraordinarly pretty chappel overlooking a lake at my friend's workplace (he works at a boyscout camp). It was a wonderful experiance and I almost cried during my toast to them. LOL I almost cried while I was standing with my friend up at the alter. I'm so pathetic when if comes to happy tears. :3

SO it made me wanna get married to my feefee of course. We're gonna have such a beautiful wedding. It's going to be a Scottish wedding. All the men in kilts...the women in Scottish kilt dresses. I WANNNNT IT NOOOOW. lol but not really cuz we don't have the money to buyz it yet...but it IS gonna be soo kewl.

OMG but am I tired....lol i wanna take a long nap all curled up in sleepy time :3

~Sij

Results (some more)

Wed, 06 May 2009 05:17:47 GMT

So...im drunk right now...lol....but...I finished that one test today...i think I scored a 75%...which means I passed that class YAY!!!!!!!! yeee haw! lol...I'm happy about that...and tomorrow I'm going to spend the WHOLE day studying for the audit test...even though it's not that important that I study for that one that much...I only need 53 out of 125 LMAO...But it's also studying for the CPA Exam on the 29th...

So...this was the best drunk I've been in a loooong time...its a nice plesant drunk...u know...the peaceful kind that makes you feel content? maybe its because most of my stress is gone now :3 hehe....

ALSO...I'm in LOVE with the new Sijet Reference Picture OMG OMGOMG I love it so much it is such and awesome picture!!!!!!! lol sometimes I'm sooo jeloz of girls....but...I can't be a girl...sooooo....lol

LOL also...the new BAP president is trying to get me to do something for her...and I don't really care >:O LOL but i will do it...just not on her time table...it's not like any of that eboard ever did anything nice for me }:-3

OK...I'll see ya'll l8er...lol *lubs*

~Sij

Sijet is BORN!!! PICARS!

Tue, 05 May 2009 00:45:17 GMT

SOOO....my feefee made me pictures of me as Sijet! YAAAY...it is so very very very awesome...i am in love so much...and it's a reference sheet too!! awesome tastic! now I could commission other artists etc someday!!

So ya that is just awesome tastic....but also...I've been studying...i just finished one of my exams it was super easy and I am happy about that...I feel prepared for tomorrow's exam...at least as good as I ever would be! lol but over all I am feeling much happier that before...

Today was a trial though...at work...I was about to leave....I was in the car...it was turned on...the A/C was blowing...I was about to call my feefee to tell her i was on my way home and then my boss (also my step-dad) comes out and yells at me that I didn't finish...WTF!!!....I had dones something we always do and he says it wasnt right...I clean motel rooms and there is a refrigerator in one of them...it was defrosting so i left rags in it...that room is NEVER rented on a Monday night...and my step-dad is yelling at me that I have to get a hair dryer so it is completely ready to rent!!! WTF?!?!?!? It made me mad..and when i was finally done....I got in my car...turned Combichrist and Oomph! up to absolute max and drove home in so much anger it was hard to believe looking back at it...ERG....I really don't like my parents as bosses...

Otherwise...feeling awesome right now!!! :3

Stresses

Sat, 02 May 2009 01:36:40 GMT

So I've been feeling quite stressed out these last couple of weeks. I'm starting to study for the next section of the CPA Exam I have to take on May 29th...and I'm stressing out about finals next week as in one of my classes I sometimes am afraid I don't know enough like I should...but all I have to do is pass, so I'm not worried right this second. But every time I go to look at the materials my brain locks up and feels fried. I was trying to study so hard the other night and I just couldn't...it was stressing me so much I started balling in stress...I couldn't help it....everytim I look at it I feel terrible. It's really really hard...I just wish that it was all over....but I have to pass all my classes or I can't graduate from college...errrgh stress is NOT fun!!!! eck. I wish I could make it go away....

Sorry for the ranting, but I'm just feeling a little stressed out right now, lol...

I'm not a President Anymore

Sat, 25 Apr 2009 03:25:37 GMT

I am sooo exstatic!! I'm not a president of Beta Alpha Psi anymore!!! It was so fucked up OMG I was so fucking tired of it...i just finished the School of Accounting Banquet and that was the end of my Presidency! I'm so happy...I'm finally me again and it makes me super super happy because I've just wanted to be me for so long and I wasn't me. But I am me again!!!! It's very good.

All is good in my life right now :3 YAY!!!!!!!!!

CPA Exam Results and too much WoW

Tue, 21 Apr 2009 06:58:19 GMT

So I took the first section of my CPA exam today...I felt like I did better than my first section and worse then my second section...so I should have passed YAY!!!! So I lost so much terrible stress from that...OMG is was just awful, my face was breaking out in acne and it was all just very very bad. But now that test section is OVER YAY!!!!

After the test I had to eat at my Grandma's place...kinda boring (she likes bland food) but as soon as I got home...straight to WoW!!!! Finally I got to PLAY!!!! instead of just log on for money....now it is WAAAAAAY to late and I need to go to be and wake up in like 4 hours....ew....not good at all....but....WoW was good. Time for sleep!

Nighty NIGHT!!!!

~Sij

Tomorrow is the Big Day

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 01:53:25 GMT

Tomorrow I will be taking my CPA exam...I feel prepared I took another simulated exam and got an 82.5 so im excited. I'm a little wacked right now just watched Yes Man and that was a very cute movie...a really good message too...i think im going to try and implement it in my life a little and that starts with no more stupid whining and complaining any more!!! and I mean it! I should be happy I got a great life really. Anyway...talk to everybody later!

Nighty night
~Sij

Simulated CPA Exam

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 02:28:06 GMT

Ok so I took a simulated CPA exam today for the section I've been studying...i technically passed, but i'm going to keep studying all the areas I got wrong. That is one tough exam, let me tell you sir/madam...its crazy hard....i wouldn't suggest it...not good for you health...really don't....

Anyway, we're going downstate tomorrow, so that should be fun...i get to study during the drive tho...o boi...

I'm going to be in my best friend's wedding on May 9th (same day as graduation so i dont get to walk...but i didn't really want to do that whole walk thing anyway) and I've been trying to get fit for a tux...but each time i get measurements the stupid place calls my friend back and is like...we need different measurements mahnamana....blah so stupid...i've measured like every inch of mu body!!! What else could I measure!!??

Anywhozer....I'm eating a subway sub that my roomie got me...i like her she's nice <3...and cookies oooo cookies....and ya...imna take a shower now...and sleep...even tho my brian is wired from that test so iono if imna be able to sleep any time soon...o well...

NIGHTY NIGHT!!!!11!!1

~Sij

SUCCESS!!

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 21:50:52 GMT

Lol well almost...I've been having very good luck with my studying lately. At first I was just really having trouble with all of the concepts...but the last couple days I've been using a notebook to write down notes as I was doing the Homework problems and it really helped. Now I actually understand the hardest stuff like Defined Pension Benefit Accounting and Deferred Tax Allocation and Capital Lease accounting. (Not that too people are going to understand any of that, lol ^^)

Anyway, I've been having a really good day considering my computer just fizzled out (its power supply died). I've made a new friend (suicidevixen<-*hugs* ) (and my sweetie is here beside me it makes me happy <3) so ya...I'm pretty happy, and now I'm just doing some more studying and soon imna get some pizza i think...if i get the gumption to get up and go to the place to get it, lol.

So I also think that my kink test was a little off on some things lol, its not perfect I guess...I thinks its because some questions relate to topics that don't have really the right answers too...like the answer should be: I dont know, ive never experianced but might wanna try if I had the opportunity lol hehe...

Ok well time for more studying...or pizza....or studying....or.....lol i think pizza :3

Bye byee!

~Sij

The Kink Test

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 13:41:04 GMT

So I've noticed all these different people taking this kink test...so I decided to too lol

Your result for The Kink Spectrum Analysis Test...

Green (530 nm)

Not bad! You're probably not willing to try everything, but you have quite a few kinks. Or you strongly prefer one side of the fence. Look for another Green, or a Blue if you feel adventurous. Reds may be okay as well if they share one or two of your likings (see below). But stay away from Ultraviolets unless you want to radically spice up your sex life. You've been warned.

But I promised you a more detailed analysis, so here it is. Note that most scales are twofold: There are separate values for giving (active) and receiving (passive). If you scored high on one of them, you should look for a partner who scored high on the other. If you scored high on both of them, go for someone who is similar (or for multiple partners if you're into that). If you scored low on both, this probably is not your kind of kink.

You scored 52% giving and 69% receiving on oral.

You scored 22% giving and 40% receiving on anal.

You scored 31% giving and 29% receiving on bondage.

You scored 19% giving and 33% receiving on humiliation.

You scored 11% giving and 25% receiving on pain.

You scored 45% dominance and 38% submission.

You scored 54% voyeurism and 26% exhibitionism.

Besides that, you're 44% into fetishism and 80% polysexual (i.e. interested in sex with multiple partners, whether at the same time or not). You'll probably want a partner who is similar, whether you scored high or low in these categories.

Finally, you scored 39% on autoerotic - a scale that measures your ability and/or willingness to have kinky fun without a partner. It's not exactly a matching criterion, but it's good for you if your score is high. Keep it up!

Take The Kink Spectrum Analysis Test at HelloQuizzy

Kitties r Cute!

Mon, 13 Apr 2009 03:23:02 GMT

So I was studying, and it was very borying, but my kitty Mr. Diddles was laying on my lap. I was slouching way down on the couch, with my book on my knees. I let go of the book for just a sec and it tilted slightly toward me. Then Mr. Diddles looked up and just about shat herself LOL she was so cute she thought the book was gonna fall on her :3 She thought the book was gonna fall on her, but then she just relaxed and was like "waht? notin happened...srsly...notin.." It was so cute.

I fee like I'm really getting some of my studying done now. My fiancee had to fight with my parents to get me some time off, but it worked in the end :3 I love her so much <3 PLUS she got a bunny...and in teh deal that let her get a bunny (she really didnt need a bunny) she agreed to do my fursona commish next *eeeeeeeeeeee*

KK time for me to sleep, nighty night to the world ^^

~Sij

Studying = Depressing

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 00:23:51 GMT

So, studying for the CPA Exam is making me quite depressed. At first I really didn't think it would be all that bad...I thought, it'll be a challenge where I can finally prove to the world that I am as smart as I think I am and that I can go somewhere in life. Well...I'll be able to do that, but right now the cost of it is really hurting me. I'm always studying...with school-work and this Becker Review...I haven't done anything really "for myself" except really short spurts for quite a while now...and it's really starting to hurt. It just sucks! I know it will all be over soon, but....right now it's just really really hard...

Thanks for reading my rant :3

~Sij

Accounting Sucks (not the job, just the people)

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 18:54:57 GMT

So I'm extremely depressed. I want some real friends besides just my fiancee and roommate. I love them both, especially my fiancee, but seriously...I wish I had some more friends...I feel so isolated in my classes, I know that anything and everything I think, no one in my classes would agree with. I'm transgender, liberal, bisexual, and possible (most likely) a furry...ALL things any "average" Accountant would cringe at if they even heard those words spoken out loud. I had to go and choose the most bigoted, most conservative, and most close-minded of all the professions..............

Anyway, I've been studying today, just now, for a test I'm about to take in a business class that I have yet to learn anything in. Its all ridiculous and I'm just so tired of it. And, I wish I had more people to talk to besides just my lovely fiancee and friendly roomie. Grr....it really "grinds my gears!" lol at lest Family Guy still makes me happy.

So it was quite pathetic...I was actually looking through all the user created chat rooms on AIM...every single one of them seemed to be about sex...very sad...And all the AIM created ones were like election 2008....also sad. Then I was like...i wonder if FurAffinity chat would be cool, but it needs to be set up with IRC and I'm to lazy for that.

Also sad to note: a new post on FurAffinity Forums: forums.furaffinity.net/showthread.php... I had actually thought about making one of these...but Omegle sounds cute maybe I'll give that a try someday...but random people...iono...

More ranting some other time! LOL time for test taking!

~Sij

My Life Up to now

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 03:21:36 GMT

Okay, so my first post was really quick, so here's more of what's been happening to me in the last few days:

Over the last few days, a lot has happened to me. Which is quite unfortunate considering I am currently studying for the CPA Exam (which sucks btw), but at te same time I'm happy I've finally looked at what's changed in me even if it wasn't the most opportune time. Let me explain further...

It all started with my babysitter, Jen (everyone's story like this seems to have a person that got it all rolling). About the time I met her, I had few friends and they were of each gender. At my age, I should have thought girls had "cooties", but I didn't. She was a very sweet girl, but she had her problems, and she was the "authority figure" in my life besides my parents.

As such, she had a lot of power and influence over me. She talked to me about odd stuff a lot and eventually the topic of babies came up...I like talking since she wasn't making me do homework or reading, so I always listened politely (I was a really nice young kid). On this topic, though she acted quite serious and eventually talked about how she wanted to pretend she had a baby.

So I turned into her pretend baby. She diapered me and treated me like a baby (it wasn't creepy though, no one got naked that I remember, unless she changed my diaper, but for the most part I don't remember any naked-ness, but that was a long time ago). She even taught me how to turn blankets and towels into "diapers" my self so I could "practice" on my own.

This didn't last long though as my parents told me she let me have too much fun (don't know if they knew the truth), and they switched my babysitter to the Jen's sister. The siste was very strict and studied the whole time, so consequently so did I. My time with Jen was short but the seed had been planted.

Soon after that, my parents went through divorce, and I went to counseling to make sure I wasn't going to be depressed because of it. After they realized I would be fine, my mother found someone else and we eventually moved to California. Once I was there, I made a few friends, but not many, like usual. I tried to ask some girls out to some pretty pathetic failure. One finally said yes, but I'm not sure who was pitty-dating the other. Eventually, I broke it off and then met someone else...I believe she was...possibly a lesbian or something, she acted very strange...that relationship was somewhat long distance so I never felt like breaking it off like I should have...

Anyway, unrelated to my pathetic relationship life...I was discovering myself...in the ordinary male way. I discovered masturbation, and that was fun for a while, but not very satisfying. Unfortunately, I had a computer with internet connection in my room so I occasionally looked at porn, I don't like what I did know. Porn is so degrading to women, man salivating to it...it makes me unhappy to think of now. From the porn though, I did learn a few things...since I started with lesbian porn, not wanting to look at other men. I looked at those girls, wishing I could be them...this was when I first felt like I should have been born a girl.

After that "discovery" I decided it must just be a phase and I just let myself go through it. I wore my mother's underware, lol, bras, panties. I even stole my mother's entire box of unused sanitary pads to tape my penis back. During this time I also discovered how good anal masturbation felt. This of course made me even more worried as I assumed only girls wanted to feel things inside them. These feelings never did go away. They only intensified and then they subsided for awhile.

Eventually we moved from California back to Michigan, and I managed to break it off with that girl, who I had been now lying to and attempting to have sex with to validate myself as a man (that never happened though, thank the gods). My mother decided I would be better off homeschooled than going to a small town high school with my incoming GPA. This was all fine and dandy until I became incredibly depressed. Porn was all I thought about and I felt like complete crap. Eventually I cracked and told my parents I was going to school. Everything got better from there. I met my best friend, and then my fiancee. I finally had sex and it was completely amazing and made me feel so much like a man I couldn't believe it.

Porn didn't stop though, and for that I am very sad, but eventually I was caught with it and everyone disapproved of it so much it made me want to stop (plus my fiancee told me I had to <3). I did stop, but the baby-ism resurfaced...I told my fiancee about it and she wasn't too enthusiastic about adult baby-ism, so I kinda stopped, but the desire remained for awhile until i finally seemed to let it go. Then I started with porn again...I got caught quickly enough and since then I finally stopped for good (thank the gods for that as well).

Then me and my fiancee moved downstate for me to go to work at as an intern at an accounting firm. I was happy, my fiancee was not...she got quite depressed. We still were in love (we have always been and it only gets stronger). We had done a number of small baby things along the way, I had had disposable diapers on a few times by then at different occasions were I would go to the store and very awkardly buy Huggies of the biggest size, lol. We hadn't done anything with diapers for quite sometime. We had also bought a strap-on for anal fun on my part. I enjoyed that stuff a lot, I finally decided anal was ok and we had fun every once and awhile.

Then my fiancee had to go on a trip, and right after work i went and bought diapers, a bottle, and nuks. I dressed myself up all babyish and actually pee'd myself. I enjoyed the warmth, but it was creepy, I didn't do it again. I also cross-dressed in my fiancee's clothing. That was most entertaining for me as I still wished I could be female sometimes. After those couple of days by myself I stopped all that again, and haven't done anything like that since.

Then, after we move back upstate for me to go to school, my fiancee goes on a trip to Furry Weekend Atlanta. She had a blast and she enjoyed herself. She came back sad because of an unfortunate loss of a lot of money, but she was sad for another reason. She was having sexuality problems and that got me thinking about mine as well...

I finally realized, after a very looong loong time of thinking that I was transgender and more gay than straight. I am biologicaly male but I gender associate with girls more than men, and if my fiancee left me I would most likely look for an understanding and cute little boi rather than look for another girl, unless she was just so...you know what I mean? AND to top it off, there's our roommate who is lesbian/sexually confused and I know she's really nice and I think she's cute, and we've (me, my fiancee, and my roommate) about her being my second girlfriend (another long story why that's not tearing us apart), and sometimes I'm not sure if they're being serious or not. ANND...I think I'm a furry, seriously, I'm a cute lil kitty cat herm anthro 4'11" tall and sexy :3

So to some it up, I've just come out to myself and now (anonymously) I am telling the world I am out as well. But I love my fiancee soooo much and I couldn't imagine not having her in my life alllll the time!!!!

So that's my life story, and now you know, if you read this and want to talk to me about it or anything you've experiance and need some advice, I'd love to help :3 Thanks for reading, and I'm sorry for boring you if it was too long. Byee!

~Sij